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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – >It’s been a tumultuous couple of weeks around here, hasn’t it. At times, it’s >felt like there’s just this evil wind blowing in the air, infecting everyone, >not a soul unscathed. I’ve learned alot in the last few weeks, I’ve learned how >insidious this thing, depression can be. I always knew it was bad, but this has >gone beyond my wildest imagination. This is a good thing and a bad thing, it’s >a bad thing because now I know that there but for the grace of God go I. It >could just as easily be anyone of us going through what Linda’s going through, I >don’t know that I would be handling it any better, I’d like to think I would, >but at best that’s probably just wishful thinking, and I do believe I’d be >fighting and clawing to hang on to whatever distorted sense of self-esteem I >still had left, because when that’s gone that’s when you start thinking suicide, >so her anger doesn’t seem so unjustified to me anymore, it still pisses me off, >but I think I can understand the hell that created it, I’m not trying to excuse >it, simply understand it. >I’m feeling better, I’ve quit enough meds, actually doing work in therapy, I >don’t think they are going to fire me from my job anymore, 
, I know I do good >work and I’ve accomplished alot despite my illness, I think the ptsd has forced >me to get up and go alot of times when I would have liked to just crawl under >the bed so maybe I have to be thankful for the hypervigilence and just being the >person everyone depended on, I think I’m stronger for it. I did the ultimate >grown up act this week and as much as it terrified me, it felt really good, I >feel very, hmmmmm, settled. My house is in order. (it wasn’t sexual) >But I haven’t arrived, I hope not to…I think that’s what life is about, the >journey, learning, growing, expecting the unexpected. You know what, trapper, >there are some wonderful people here, too many to name, they will give you the >benefit of all their experience, their friendship, and laugh with you, not at >you when you need it, you just have to tune out the excess noise. Those folks >know who they are <wink> Thanks for everything! Linda, I hope you feel better >and can work this out with your mother before she dies, trust me on this, if you >don’t, you will live to regret it, You never know what tomorrow will bring, but >it usually doesn’t bring what you expect.
Excellent post. Simply excellent. BRAVO!
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>You know what this means… >that it’s MY newsreader that’s the problem……;-)
Heaven forbid! But that doesn’t explain Squiggles or Ralph or Larry. Unless….HEY, have they been using YOUR newsreader? ;-)
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> It’s been a tumultuous couple of weeks around here, hasn’t it. At times, it’s > felt like there’s just this evil wind blowing in the air, infecting everyone, > not a soul unscathed. I’ve learned alot in the last few weeks, I’ve learned how > insidious this thing, depression can be. I always knew it was bad, but this has > gone beyond my wildest imagination. This is a good thing and a bad thing, it’s > a bad thing because now I know that there but for the grace of God go I. It > could just as easily be anyone of us going through what Linda’s going through, I > don’t know that I would be handling it any better, I’d like to think I would, > but at best that’s probably just wishful thinking, and I do believe I’d be > fighting and clawing to hang on to whatever distorted sense of self-esteem I > still had left, because when that’s gone that’s when you start thinking suicide, > so her anger doesn’t seem so unjustified to me anymore, it still pisses me off, > but I think I can understand the hell that created it, I’m not trying to excuse > it, simply understand it. > I’m feeling better, I’ve quit enough meds, actually doing work in therapy, I > don’t think they are going to fire me from my job anymore, , I know I do good > work and I’ve accomplished alot despite my illness, I think the ptsd has forced > me to get up and go alot of times when I would have liked to just crawl under > the bed so maybe I have to be thankful for the hypervigilence and just being the > person everyone depended on, I think I’m stronger for it. I did the ultimate > grown up act this week and as much as it terrified me, it felt really good, I > feel very, hmmmmm, settled. My house is in order. (it wasn’t sexual) > But I haven’t arrived, I hope not to…I think that’s what life is about, the > journey, learning, growing, expecting the unexpected. You know what, trapper, > there are some wonderful people here, too many to name, they will give you the > benefit of all their experience, their friendship, and laugh with you, not at > you when you need it, you just have to tune out the excess noise. Those folks > know who they are <wink> Thanks for everything! Linda, I hope you feel better > and can work this out with your mother before she dies, trust me on this, if you > don’t, you will live to regret it, You never know what tomorrow will bring, but > it usually doesn’t bring what you expect.
Thanks Deborah… that’s a great attitude 
Just thought you’d like to know it was read and appreciated.
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Deborah … Behold as the bird spreads its wings and takes flight gently floating upon the thermals soaring with the sun as its companion … Fear has been replaced by a new confidence gravity alone cannot hold you down … you will not be confined to the cage of your fears No longer the victim inner strength has been found healing over time but time has passed Behold the eagle the wind in its wings soaring above the earth all troubles left behind out of reach beyond the touch who would try to harm you Where once there was fear strength has been born fed by the warmth of the sun the freedom of flight Nothing can stop you now that understanding has been born knowing that victory is yours therein lies true power Spread your wings and take flight look into the darkness seeing the light of your newly acquired freedom Peter
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> It’s been a tumultuous couple of weeks around here, hasn’t it. At times, it’s > felt like there’s just this evil wind blowing in the air, infecting everyone, > not a soul unscathed. I’ve learned alot in the last few weeks, I’ve learned how > insidious this thing, depression can be. I always knew it was bad, but this has > gone beyond my wildest imagination. This is a good thing and a bad thing, it’s > a bad thing because now I know that there but for the grace of God go I. It > could just as easily be anyone of us going through what Linda’s going through, I > don’t know that I would be handling it any better, I’d like to think I would, > but at best that’s probably just wishful thinking, and I do believe I’d be > fighting and clawing to hang on to whatever distorted sense of self-esteem I > still had left, because when that’s gone that’s when you start thinking suicide, > so her anger doesn’t seem so unjustified to me anymore, it still pisses me off, > but I think I can understand the hell that created it, I’m not trying to excuse > it, simply understand it. > I’m feeling better, I’ve quit enough meds, actually doing work in therapy, I > don’t think they are going to fire me from my job anymore, , I know I do good > work and I’ve accomplished alot despite my illness, I think the ptsd has forced > me to get up and go alot of times when I would have liked to just crawl under > the bed so maybe I have to be thankful for the hypervigilence and just being the > person everyone depended on, I think I’m stronger for it. I did the ultimate > grown up act this week and as much as it terrified me, it felt really good, I > feel very, hmmmmm, settled. My house is in order. (it wasn’t sexual) > But I haven’t arrived, I hope not to…I think that’s what life is about, the > journey, learning, growing, expecting the unexpected. You know what, trapper, > there are some wonderful people here, too many to name, they will give you the > benefit of all their experience, their friendship, and laugh with you, not at > you when you need it, you just have to tune out the excess noise. Those folks > know who they are <wink> Thanks for everything! Linda, I hope you feel better > and can work this out with your mother before she dies, trust me on this, if you > don’t, you will live to regret it, You never know what tomorrow will bring, but > it usually doesn’t bring what you expect.
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